sitting here.

I'm not sure how I got to where I am. when I think of all the forks in the road that I have faced I have somehow stumbled upon success.  

I have always been told not to use someone else's measuring stick so here is my definition:

I have my life. my health. a roof over my head. a GREAT job with amazing benefits far beyond those of compensation. it's nice doing something that I know I'm good at and that I know other people value my contributions. I have grown a stronger bond within my family and am working every day to break the cycle of repressing feelings and being more open and honest. I have love in my heart. I am surrounded by wonderful people that I am blessed to call my friends. I have found Grace and am learning how to manifest it in myself for others. 

I'm not lucky. I'm blessed. 

as 2010 comes to an end, I like to sit back and reflect on the year. this was a huge year for me. epic even.

many new things: job, apartment, confidence, love, friendships, adventures. I had my hiccups, some big ones: health related concerns, my dad, moving back, run ins with the law! but through everything I persevered. I learned. I grew. Through some of these moments, I realized weaknesses that I have and things I want to improve upon in my life. I am all about growing. I don't dwell on the past. life is full of ups and downs. it's inevitable. 

I'm ready for 2011.